I sat there with my hands in my lap, my heart filled with worry. How could I have been so stupid? What was a beautiful golden deer compared to my husband? Rama, even with all his reservations still went to go capture the deer I was so enamored with. He loved me very much and would do anything to keep me happy. He protested but I selfishly pushed and insisted until he finally relented. I sat their quite pleased with myself. I had known he would say yes.
"I don't want to leave you here for some deer," he had said. "What if something happens and I'm too far away to help you?"
"I'll be fine Rama! Lakshmana will stay here and protect me." I reassured him.
Lakshmana and Rama were very close. Lakshmana had a twin but if you would hear about their devotion to each other, you would think Rama was his twin. After all, Lakshmana had chose exile out of devotion to his brother. If Rama was to trust anyone with my life, it would be Lakshmana. With this reassurance, he finally left to capture my deer. He was gone for a while when we heard Rama cry out. My heart felt like a stone in my chest. I could not manage a breath. Something happened to my Rama, and it was all my fault. I sent Lakshmana to go see what was wrong.
"I cannot leave you, Sita. I promised Rama I would guard you with my life!"
"You will not have a brother to keep your promise to if you don't go help him! Please Lakshmana! I cannot lose him."
Lakshmana left after his brother reluctantly. I sat there, filled with worry and regret. I was so involved in my own thoughts that I didn't hear the door the first time. I went to open it and there was and old hermit. How could I not let him in? Just because I was suffering did not mean I couldn't ease another's. Besides, it would make for a good distraction until the men returned.
Author's Note
I decided to write my story over Sita getting kidnapped by Ravana. There was a demoness who tried to kill Sita because she fell in love with Rama and wanted him for herself. Lakshmana ended up mutulatinrg her and the demoness ran to tell her brother Ravana after Rama and Lakshmana killed her other brother and his demon army. Ravana fell in love with Sita just by the description he was given by his sister. He decided he wanted her as his own and got his demon uncle to disguise himself as a golden deer to lure Rama away from their home. Rama refuses at first because of an omen he was told before. Sita convinces him to go anyways and Lakshmana is left with her. When Rama kills the deer, it cries out in Rama's voice. Sita sends Lakshmana after him even though he knows something isn't right. Ravana, disguised as an old hermit, goes to Sita. He reveals himself and Sita tells him to leave before Rama comes back. Ravana literally picks up the ground she's standing on and takes her away. I decided to write it in Sita's point of view so we could see her perspective up until the point she was kidnapped.
Ravana Abduts Sita from Narayan's Ramayana
